dear llanta i've turned into a GIRL

ok so i was reading through all of my last posts, o my llanta i'm the biggest whiner EVER! I didn't even mean half of things i say, i just needed to vent... and i'm done venting, so if your reading this i'll probably delete half of the posts I wrote, because i dont really want people, (or just for myself) to think i'm a whiner, cause i'm not...psh I always prided myself in not being one, dang i'm dumb... ANYWAYS So life is headed a whole new direction now that i'm back, meaning..i dont feel so much anamosity towards everyone...which is probably a good thing :D I have decided probably a good thing for my inner chi (list of things to do: try meditation, not the kind you do everymorning when you wake up or whatev, the kind where you dont talk to anyone for a week and cool stuff like that, i think it would put my life in a different perspective) So



This week i decided to mix things up and actually start to let people maybe take a look into...me



here are some things you probably didn't know about me



Sometimes, I like to meet new people, and i dont think there creepo's for actually taking the initative to start conversation...i actually quite enjoy it



My family happens to be my best friends... i swear my family is so histarical, and most of them are under the age of 13,



I happen to love frogs...ALOT. I loved the princess and the frog movie, i was going to see it a bunch o bunch of times but decided against it...i've kissed 98 frogs...yep real ones too



I enjoy NOT being the center of attention...dont get me wrong everyone is their leading actor in their movies of life, but sometimes...its nice just to be the best friend...makes life less dramaful



When i work, I WORK, i feel like i'm slackin if i am..and i hate that feeling...i'd like to think i have an over the top work ethic,



All my life, i've compaired myself to others..i've now learned to be the best me that i can be...



I have always thought I was going into culinary arts of somesort, but lately i want a job more meaningful... like a child psycologist...



I dont want to say i'm ready for a family, or that i want to settle down...but i do want to someday...when i'm around 21, i think thats a good time to start looking



I love singing and dancing, now i'm not the best at either..but i've come to decide i quite enjoy making choreography and i have gotten outstanding reviews from peers about it, which they wouldn't know anybetter but it doesn't hurt my confidence there



I've finally let myself forgive, even if others think i'm just too sweet to let it go..i'm ok with letting go. makes things alot easier.



I do want to go and see the world one day.. and i hate it when people say 'oh you need to do that before you get married' but in reality, i wouldn't want to do it alone, imagine being in a foreign place without anyone for support..and i know i could just take a friend, but when the time comes i'm ready to see the world, at whatever point in my life, if i'm married, i wouldn't be any happier to take a spouse



I have found great comfort in the scriptures, I know people are going to start seeing me as one of those 'goody two shoes' or whatever, and for a while i cared because i didn't want people to think of me that way. People tend to not trust when they here that. And i have always found that listening to peoples problems helps me for whatever reason, so i didn't want people to know that about me...But just because i love my religion, does not make me less understanding, and i hope you can trust me on that one



I learn by example, but somethings i just have to learn by myself...its kind of wierd i know.



I love watching movies...I love quoting them..makes me feel good inside haha

Alot of times i'll catch myself annoying myself, over stupid habits i've had all my life, time to grow up and get rid of those wierd laughs andstuff like that

Sometimes, its better to keep things inside, and oneday let it out, but i'd like to think the one thing that has influeced my life the most not a whole lot of people know, actually barely anyone knows, but i kind of like it that way

Well I've decided to let poeple know the real me, wow that was exilarating