Thursday, May 20, 2010


So, I have had some hard times this last year as it pains me to say. Now i'm not one to admit i'm suffering or anything so I always appriciate all that people do for me. I'm not one for words, actions speak louder anyways. When someone knows me well enough to ask how my day went, and of course i'll say fine... but then they say oh come on... how was it really? ya that is nice. Now in my experience few people have that inate sixth sense...and most of them are my family. I love my family with allmy heart, and of course i need to work on saying it more often and reminding them, but i like to think i show them. Through the laughter, the tears, the wedgies, the mashed potato eating contest, the car rides, the secret icecream...the sister outings. But i couldn't stand it if my family didn't know i loved them.. I mean i have faults...i do yell alot. So from this moment on, I will be the best sister/daughter i can be for them. They deserve so much more. They have been there for me when no one has. I dont even have to tell them things, and i'll get a random hug, or a smile, or a wrestle match...point is is that Family IS Forever. And I would never let mine go for anything. Thanks for showing me a preview of heaven.

Monday, May 10, 2010


When people show kindness, what really do they get out of it? I mean how can you really tell if someone is just sayin things out of duty, as opposed to heartfelt meaning. People say i love you all the time, but what really do they feel. I know i love my family...but i hardly ever say it. I'd like to think i show it to some extent. But then i meet people that say it all the time, but hardly ever show what is one to do? Go after what they say or what they do? They say a picture(orr as i would like to think an action) could speak a thousand words..So true. So why do people not show it? Why dont they ever show what they say? How is one to know, that one kind action can change anothers life forever. I know mine has....heck one simple text did. Words are one thing...i almost think maybe a beginner step to affection, showing could be intermediate...and knowing could be advanced. So I ask you avid readers(which no one ever does read it but eh) why choose the beginners level?

I would like to thank the people that have showed me not even being kind to me directly. For they are our true leaders in this life. I hope god gives you everything and anything you deserve.